Wednesday, December 25, 2013

I miss you so hard

Like your dimple, when you used to laugh in my eyes
when you did effort to make my eyes laugh.
There is a deep warm sweet hole in my heart when you are far, a hole just like your dimple.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

when you kiss me ...

I share my room with my sisters;
I share my most beloved snacks with the friend sitting next to me;
I give my chair to that pregnant girl in the bus;
I share my closet with my mother;
but when you give me your hand, I feel it's just mine.

I share my warm greetings with lots of people;
I share my ideas with lots of my friends;
I share my girlish careless joyance with anyone watching me in the street;
I share my pictures in social networks;
but when I tighten you in my arms, I feel it's just yours.

You share your smile with anyone who is kind with you;
you share your best wishes with lots of people around you;
you share that salty special taste of you with your friends;
you share your presence, your attention, your words with a huge amount of beauties;
but when you kiss me, I feel you are just mine.

When you kiss me I feel that I have finally found something in the world to trust the most. When you kiss me I see myself *someone* who is the owner of your kisses, your presence, your attention, your arms, your smiles. When your lips touch me I feel there must be something, someone, to die for. All of my bitter beliefs about the life fade when I measure the warmth of your lips by my tongue. All of my certainty about solitude melt in your arms when I taste you lips, as my legs start to tremble.

Monday, September 2, 2013

Friday, August 30, 2013

Our burnt palms ...

There are some aspects of love which just  can be find in the right palm and the fingers.
Some aspects like changing the gear while your hand is in hands, something like trying to put your dress on while you can't help patting her, something like trying to sweep his tears with your palm while he is tightly in your arms.
There are some aspects of love which are not present in my fingers, in my right palm. Which won't be.
But I am still able to text you. But I will embrace my phone intensively in my fist for minutes to receive your message. But I will keep touching its screen with my fingers to preserve it bright, so I'd be able to read your text for the 100th time.
I may not able to take your chin in my fingers, I may not be able to send a kiss from my palm for you in a crowd right now. But I will send you a star in my text. I'll surround you my moon with all the stars I have hidden in my lips.

Monday, August 26, 2013

to your eyes


I have got a knight tough me what is tender,
epitome of warmth, truly bold and clever.

I have got a knight makes my heart shiver,
with straight black hair dancing over his shoulder.

Melting in his arms I've found the health,
I've gone down the fever.

Beyond all fantasies, his fanciful eyes glitter,
the eyes of my knight, nights and days, forever.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Let's settle the mare

There is something in the concurrency of patience and desire. Something in the similarity of your breathing and my beating rhythms. There is something in the combination of light and darkness in my heart, in the dim and vivid spots dancing on the angles of your sweet face while you are swinging freely.
There should be something in my obscure dreams filled with threatened insecure eye of mine, fooled with warm accepting arms of you. There must be something hidden in my wet_of_crying flushed_of_laughing adorned face.
Solve the bitterness of all these ambiguities. Cease this frustration. Change this problem to an invertible function, in which your smile equals mine, my eyes equal yours. 

Friday, March 22, 2013

When it does smell


Blood smell comes out of the room. Blood smell comes out of the door of the room. Blood smell comes out of the little dusty windows of the room. Out of this aged walkman, out of that en masse filled book shelf, out of this damn Abd-el-Halim crying continuously in your deaf ears “Ma as’aba an tahva…” blood smell comes. Blood smell comes out of your ears, out of your lips and teeth.
The smell of obsolescence comes out of the extravagant ancient carpet of your room, out of Jack Nicholson’s poster sticked on the left wall, out of the painting of Kaaba door hanged on the wall which contrasts the Qibla, out of Mirhossein’s picture with V-shaped hand on an old newspaper. The smell of obsolescence comes out of damn boring Herman Hesse who doesn’t let the poor wolf die peacefully in a cozy corner of a damned cold bright street. The smell of obsolescence comes out of your elegant idiotic eyes with huge amount of tears festered behind your long devout eyelids.
The smell of rotten wounds comes out of your spoilt disgusting birthday present, out of the short crooked roof of your room, out of this deaden dumb violin, out of the never bought piano of yours. Damn Micky Roucky smells like a rotten wound. The smell of rotten wounds comes out of mama’s “Red Bread” story while I am just a kid, out of your ribbed orange T-shirt, out of these wet shy eyes. It smells like a rotten wound your left red hand with a quiver in it with your bent stitched fingers.
The smell of cigarette comes out of Tehran-Mashhad train. Our laughter smells like a cigarette when we bunk off the school and make the world seeking after us. Your cheeks smell like a smoked finished cigarette as your hurt throat does. He smells a cigarette reclining on the car crying in silent as you keep watching him from the mirror apprehensive as a mother. The smell of cigarette comes out of your wallet.
The smell of a dagger comes out of my vessels. Out of my athirst blood vessels. The smell of dagger comes out of my lips and teeth. Out of my throat, my hands, my wallet, my calm large eyes. Blood smell comes out of my tired mind. The smell of dagger comes out of my body. The smell of blood, smoke, dirt and pepper, all are coming out of my clothes of yesterday.

P.S: You can find the Persian version of this post here!

Sunday, January 27, 2013

This pain is just too real...

They had just broken up. 
Becoming separated doesn't need  some weird or extravagant reasons. It isn't also the result habituation and of everyday hazards. Sometimes, being too good calm and understanding will throw you in a bitter unwanted solitude which you can't avoid.
Sometimes you should insist in your own egoistic demands. Some girls need you to persist on your unavoidable desires, i.e on having them in any situation! 
It's hard to see that you are loosing someone just due to his/her high responsibility and dedication.

wish them to get together again

P.S: sorry for my weak writing skills. I'm trying to write in English in any situations and I nearly have no useful  experience for it. 

Saturday, January 19, 2013

I'm in

I have been planning to start an English blog for nearly a year, but I delayed to start it cause no friend were there to read me. Hmmm... Let's be honest! I just didn't have enough  motive force to overcome my inertia (i.e I'm a lazy person no doubt it). Furthermore, I didn't have the confidence to write in English.
But then I had to write an article and a project's abstract for international magazine and conference and I found my entourages surprised from my writing skills. So my enthusiasm became more and more to develop this ability these days.
Few days ago, one of my friends invite us to start writing in English and I utilized the opportunity to overcome my internal inertia and start my blog!
 I wish rich delightful days here for ourselves. And I'll be happy to find more friends to share my ideas with.

Mahdieh